by the pimpette

I’m confused

Caught up in a world that doesn’t seem to love me

I live life as if it has no meaning

It’s as if my emotions r dead

Yet they are very much alive and working

It’s easy yet… so hard to explain this feeling I’m having

I’m confused

Words can’t explain the soundless explosion of emotions going on in my brain

Pain fills my heart

What is wrong?

I can’t explain it

I’m confused

I want you

You want me

You have a girlfriend

I have men

Who clearly don’t care about me

I think you would make the perfect companion

A good man in the future

But…

It’s confusing

I have a man and I’m angry you lied about your girlfriend

 I live the life of a pimp

Why do I care?

I guess I want to control you

No

I want to have you as mine

Yes but I think there is more to it than that

I guess I love you…